Thinking 2 Much

Outside of the window, near the computer is the clearest blue sky that I have seen, in a very long time. Sky like that has a tendency to make me hopeful. Right now, for me, hope is all I really have. You see, I am going through a sort of transition. I am stagnant with my music, although I was offered a singing position with a local band. They have not started performing yet and I have some reservations about the arrangement. Anyways, with my music on hold I have to bring in some sort of revenue. Therefore, I have started back writing. It's hard, coming from a very extensive writer's block, back to writing everyday, all day. That's part of the reason I started this blog, so that I could find my voice. Or better put, my creative, writer's voice.
Self-motivation has never been my strong point. I have always needed back-up and sometimes even praise. Rejection is a big part of this business and I've got pretty tough skin, but...? I guess I am just in a mood of sorts, the kind that makes me realize that hope and I are going to be spending a lot of time together from now on. I just "hope" that I pull myself out of the ruts that I get myself into. But hey, that's just me.